“There’s always tomorrow” I just said to myself with a big sigh.
I just got done putting all 3 kids down for a nap, well shoving them in their beds as quickly as possible without hurting them, is more like it.
Today, wasn’t such a good day.
Today, I wasn’t the best mom I could be.
Although the weather is Spring perfect, the best season here in the Inland Empire and the best season to be outside, I was holed up indoors and chained to my desk under deadline pressure.
The day didn’t start out that way, I had good intentions of being a good mother and teaching my daughter something useful. I twiddled away a few moments in the morning chatting with friends online, I completed a article I started yesterday that is due on Thursday, I sent out several important emails and then by chance actually, I realized I had something else due today at 3 pm. I don’t do that, completely forget about an article, like ever. So I was under pressure to research, write, organize, format and get the thing done as quickly as possible.
In doing so, I forgot to feed the 2 year old lunch. In doing so, I wasn’t nice or kind or patient. I picked up my son from school, well shoved them all in the car as quickly as possible without hurting them, is more like it and told them all to go outside and play and I sat back down at my desk and hurried myself to finish. The article won’t lack flare or pizzazz but my children lacked a good mother today.
It’s days like today I wonder if what I do is worth it.
Hugs
You are an amazing mother. Take time for them tomorrow, go to the park. But also take time for you.
We all have those days where you wish you could do it over. I say tomorrow is Chucky Cheese Day!
Some days just suck all the way around. Your kids love you as much as you love them and I’m sure they understand a bad day even if they don’t know how to express it. They won’t need it, but if it makes you feel better, maybe talk with the older 2 while you are giving extra cuddles to the baby (apologize even?) and maybe ask them about a really bad day they’ve had. Taking that kind of time to share with them will help them understand more in the future and maybe help alleviate some of your bad feelings. Oh, and you are awesome at what you do as a mom and in your career. You are more than capable of continuing to be great in both, but cut yourself some slack if you just aren’t feeling the work thing right now or if you need help with the kiddos, you’ve got friends that are willing to step up for you 🙂 You don’t ALWAYS have to be Superwoman…it makes the rest of look like crap ; }